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GRM 77.3

The Gospel as revealed to me

Quotation

«As usual. I am wrong.»

«No, Judas. You have a practical sense, you said so yourself.»

«Oh! but with Jesus!… Also Simon Peter was full of practical sense, but now!… You, too, Judas, will become like him. You have only been with the Master a short time, we have been longer with Him, and we are already better» says John who is always kind and conciliatory.

«He did not want me. Otherwise I would have been His since Passover.» Judas is really bad-tempered today.

Detail

Judas has just had a conversation with Jesus and Simon the Zealot. He grumbles at the end, because he wasn't right, and says:

GRM 78.1

The Gospel as revealed to me

Quotation

78.1 I am under the impression that the steepest part, that is the most tangled part of Judaean mountains, is between Hebron and Jutah. But I may be mistaken, and this valley may be wider, opening onto wider horizons, with isolated mountains emerging here and there, not forming any real chain. It may be a valley between two chains of mountains. I do not know. It is the first time I see it, and I am puzzled. The fields are not very large, but they are well cultivated with various cereals: mainly barley and rye. There are also some nice vineyards in the sunny parts. Higher up, I can see some lovely forests of pine-trees and fir-trees and other trees typical of woody places. A reasonably good road leads into a small village.

«This is the suburb of Kerioth. Please come to my country house. My mother is waiting for You there. We will go to Kerioth afterwards» says Judas who is beside himself with excitement.

I omitted to mention that only Judas, Simon and John are now with Jesus. The shepherds are not here. Perhaps they remained in the pastures of Hebron or they have gone back towards Bethlehem.

«As you wish, Judas, but we could have even stopped here to meet your mother.»

«Oh! No! It is only a farm house. My mother comes here at harvest time. But she lives in Kerioth. And do You not want my town people to see You? Do You not want to take Your light to them?»

«I certainly do, Judas. But you already are aware that I do not mind the humbleness of the place that gives Me hospitality.»

«But today You are my guest… and Judas knows how to be hospitable.»

They walk for a few more yards among houses spread about the country, while men and women look out, called by children. It is obvious that their curiosity has been awakened. Judas must have sent word warning them.

«Here is my poor house. Forgive its poverty.»

But, after all, the house is not a hovel: it consists of a large and well kept ground floor only, in the middle of a thick flowering orchard. A small private clean road leads from the main road to the house.

«May I go ahead of You, Master?»

«Yes, go.»

Judas goes.

«Master, Judas has done things in great style» says Simon. «I rather suspected he would. But now I am certain. Master, You keep saying, and quite rightly, spirit… But he… he does not see things that way. He will never understand You… or perhaps only very late» he adds not to grieve Jesus.

Jesus sighs and is silent.

GRM 78.2-4

The Gospel as revealed to me

Quotation

78.2 Judas comes out with a woman who is about fifty years old. She is rather tall, but not so tall as her son, who has her same dark eyes and curly hair. But her eyes are kind and rather sad, whereas those of Judas are imperious and shrewd.

«I greet You, King of Israel» she says prostrating herself in a real salutation of a subject. «Allow Your servant to give You hospitality.»

«Peace to you, woman. And may God be with you and your creature.»

«Oh! yes! With my creature.» It sounds more like a sigh than a reply.

«Stand up, mother. I have a Mother, too, and I cannot allow you to kiss My feet. I kiss you, woman, in My Mother’s name. She is a sister of yours… in love and in the painful destiny of the mother of those who are marked.»

«What do You mean, Messiah?» asks Judas somewhat worried.

But Jesus does not reply. He is embracing the woman, whom He has kindly raised up from the ground and is now kissing her cheeks. And, holding her hand, He walks toward the house.

They go into a cool room, which is shaded by light striped curtains. Cold drinks and fresh fruit are already laid out. But first of all Judas’ mother calls a maidservant who brings in water and the landlady would like to take off Jesus’ sandals and wash His dusty feet. But Jesus objects. «No, mother. A mother is too holy a person, particularly when she is honest and good, as you are, to be allowed to take an the attitude of a slave…»

The mother looks at Judas… an unusual look. She then goes away. Jesus has refreshed Himself. When He is about to put on His sandals, the woman comes back with a new pair. «Here, Messiah. I think I have done the right thing… as Judas wanted… He said to me: “A little longer than mine, but the same width”.»

«But why, Judas?»

«Will You not let me offer You a gift? Are You not my King and my God?»

«Yes, Judas. But you must not give so much trouble to your mother. You know what I am like…»

«I know. You are holy. But You must appear as a holy King. That is how one imposes oneself. In the world, where nine tenths of the folk are foolish people, we must impose ourselves with our appearance. Trust me.»

Jesus has fastened the red leather open straps of the new sandals, which reach up to His ankles. They are much nicer than His plain sandals of a workman, and they resemble Judas’ sandals, which are like shoes with open parts showing of his feet.

«Also the tunic, my King. I prepared it for Judas… But he makes a present of it to You. It’s a linen one: cool and new. Allow a mother to put it on You… as if You were her son.»

Jesus looks at Judas once again… but does not speak. He unties the lace of His tunic round His neck, and lets His wide tunic fall onto the floor and thus is left with only His short under-tunic. The woman puts the lovely new garment on Him. She offers Him a belt, which is richly embroidered braid, from which a cord hangs down, decorated with very thick tassels. Jesus must feel comfortable in the cool clean clothes, but He does not seem very happy. In the meantime the others have cleaned themselves.

«Come, Master. They come from my poor orchard. And this is honeyed water, prepared by my mother. Perhaps, Simon, you would prefer this white wine. Have some. It is the wine of my vineyard. And what about you, John? Will you have the same as the Master?» Judas is overjoyed at pouring the drinks into beautiful silver cups, thus showing his wealth.

His mother is not very talkative. She looks… looks… at Judas, and even more at Jesus, and when Jesus, before eating, offers her the nicest fruit (possibly very big apricots, they are yellow red fruits, certainly not apples) and He says to her: «First of all to mother, always», her eyes well with tears.

«Mother, is the rest ready?» asks Judas.

«Yes, son. I think I have done everything well. But I was brought up here and I have always lived here and I do not know… I do not know the habits of kings.»

«Which habits, woman? Which kings? What have you done, Judas?»

«Are You not the promised King of Israel? It is time that the world should salute You as such, and that must happen for the first time here, in my town, in my house. I revere You as such. For my sake, and for the respect due to Your names of Messiah, Christ, King, which the Prophets gave You by Yahweh’s command, do not give me the lie.»

78.3 «Woman, friends, please. I must speak to Judas. I have precise instructions to give him.»

The mother and the disciples withdraw.

«Judas: what have you done? Have you understood so little of Me so far? Why lower Me to the extent of making Me only a mighty man of the world, and what is more: a man intriguing to become mighty? And do you not understand that that is an offence, even an obstacle to My mission? Yes. Do not deny it. It is an obstacle. Israel is subjected to Rome. You know what happened when they raised against Rome someone who seemed a mob-leader and aroused the suspicion of creating an insurrection. Only a few days ago you heard how pitiless they were against a Child because they were afraid He might be a king according to the world. And yet you!…

Oh! Judas! What do you expect from the sovereignty of the flesh? What do you expect? I gave you time to think and decide. I spoke to you very clearly from the very first time. I also sent you away because I knew… because I know, I read and see what is in you. Why do you want to follow Me, if you do not want to be as I want you? Go away, Judas. Do not harm yourself and do not harm Me… Go away. It is better for you. You are not a suitable worker for this task. It is by far too much above you. In you there is pride, there is greed and all its three branches, there is arrogance… even your mother must be afraid of you… you are inclined to falsehood… No, My follower must not be like that. Judas, I do not hate you, I do not curse you. I only say to you, and I am saying it with the grief of one who knows he cannot change the person he loves, I only say to you: go your way, make your way in the world, since that is what you want, but do not stay with Me.

My life!… My royal palace! How small and mean they are! Do you know where I will be a King? When I will be proclaimed King? When I will be raised up, upon an ill-famed piece of wood and My own blood will be purple, and My crown will be a wreath of thorns and My insignia a mocking poster and the curses of all the people, of My people, will be the trumpets, the tambourines, the organs, the citherns saluting the proclamation of the King. And do you know by whose deed all this will happen? By the deed of one who did not understand Me. One who will have understood nothing. One, whose heart was a hollow piece of bronze, that pride, sensuality and avarice had filled with their humours, which will generate coils of snakes that will be used to chain Me and… and to curse him. The others are not so well aware of My destiny. Please do not tell them. Let us keep this to ourselves. In any case it is a reproach… and you will keep quiet to avoid saying: “I was reproached”… Is that clear, Judas?»

78.4 Judas has blushed so much, that he looks purple. He is standing before Jesus, mortified, his head lowered… He kneels down and he cries with his head on Jesus’ knees: «I love you, Master, Don’t reject me. Yes, I am proud and foolish, but don’t send me away. No. Master. I will never do it again. You are right. It was thoughtless of me. But there is some love in my mistake. I wanted to honour You… and I wanted the others to honour You as well… because I love You. You said so three days ago: “When you make a mistake without malice, out of ignorance, it is not an error, but an incorrect judgement: like the error of children, and I am here to make adults of you”. Here I am, here against Your knees… You said You would be a father to me… and I am here against Your knees as if they were my father’s, and I ask You to forgive me, and to make an “adult” of me, a holy adult… Don’t send me away, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus… Not everything is wicked in me. You know: I left everything for you and I have come. You are much more than the honours and victories I got serving other people. You are indeed the love of poor unhappy Judas who would like to give You nothing but joy, and is instead the cause of pain for You…»

«That is all right, Judas. I forgive you once again…» Jesus looks tired… «I forgive you, hoping… hoping that in future you will understand Me.»

«Yes, Master. But, now, do not give me the lie, otherwise I will be laughed at. Everybody in Kerioth knows that I was coming with David’s Descendant, the King of Israel… and the town has made preparations to welcome You… I thought I was doing a good thing… showing You what one must do to be respected and obeyed… and I also wanted to show John and Simon, and through them, all the others who love You but treat You as their equal… My mother too would be mocked at, as the mother of a mad liar. For her sake, my Lord,… And I swear that I…»

«Do not swear to Me. Swear to yourself, if you can, that You will not commit such a sin again. For the sake of your mother and your fellow citizens I will not shame you by going away without stopping here. Stand up.»

«What will You tell the others?»

«The truth…»

«No, don’t.»

«The truth: that I gave you instructions for today. It is always possible to tell the truth in a charitable way. Let us go. Call your mother and the others.»

Jesus is rather severe. He smiles again only when Judas comes back with his mother and the disciples. The woman gazes at Jesus, but she gains confidence when she sees His kind disposition. I get the impression she is in great distress.

«Shall we go to Kerioth? I have rested and I wish to thank you, mother, for all your kindness. May Heaven reward you and grant rest and peace to your late husband for all your charity to Me.»

The woman tries to kiss His hand, but Jesus caresses her head and thus prevents her from doing so.

Detail

Judas prepared his city and his mother to receive Jesus as King of Israel (EMV 78.2). But this is not to the Savior's liking. He receives new sandals, a very comfortable garment and the opportunity to freshen up, but he is not happy with all these favors. When he hears Judas' mother say that she doesn't know the ways of kings, he asks to speak to Judas alone, and their discussion begins in earnest (EMV 78.3).

GRM 79.4

The Gospel as revealed to me

Quotation

79.4 «Master» says Elias. «That woman… the woman who is in John’s house… three days after You left and we were pasturing the sheep on the meadows of Hebron — they belong to everybody, the meadows, and they could not send us away — she sent her maid to us with this bag and told us that she wanted to speak to us… I don’t know whether I did the right thing… but the first time I gave the bag back to her and said: “I do not want to listen to her”… Then she sent this message: “Come in Jesus’ name” and I went. She waited until her… well, the man who keeps her, had gone… She wanted to know so many things. But I… didn’t tell her very much. Out of prudence. She is a prostitute. I was afraid it might be a trap for You. She asked me who You are, where You live, what You do, if You are a gentleman… I said: “He is Jesus of Nazareth, He goes everywhere, because He is a Master, and He goes around Palestine teaching”; I said You are a poor man, a simple workman, made wise by Wisdom… Nothing else.»

«You did well» says Jesus, and Judas at the same moment exclaims: «You did the wrong thing! Why did you not say that He is the Messiah, the King of the world? The proud Roman woman should be crushed under the blow of God’s splendour.»

«She would not have understood me… In any case how could I be sure that she was sincere? When you saw her, you said what she is. Was I to throw holy things, and everything that is Jesus is holy, into her mouth? Was I to endanger Jesus, giving too much information? Anyone may hurt Him, but I will not.»

«John, let us go and tell her who the Master is, and explain the holy truth to her.»

«Not me. Unless Jesus tells me.»

«Are you afraid? What can she do to you? Do you loathe her? The Master did not.»

«I am not afraid neither do I loathe her. I feel sorry for her. But I think that if Jesus wanted, He could have stopped to teach her. He did not do it… it is not necessary for us to do it.»

«At that time there were no signs of a conversion… Now…»

Detail

Elijah was called by Aglaia in Hebron. She gave him her jewels. Judas reacts... very spontaneously and suggests that John turn back, but he refuses to do so unless Jesus orders him to.

GRM 80.2-4

The Gospel as revealed to me

Quotation

While I am watching so much desolation, I am aroused by the voice of my Jesus: «Here we are at the place I wanted.» I turn around. I see Him behind me, with John, Simon and Judas, near the rocky slope of the mountain, where there is a little path, or rather, where the long erosion of water, in the rainy months, has formed a very shallow channel throughout centuries, a drain for the water flowing from the mountain top and which is a path for wild goats rather than for men.

Jesus looks around and repeats: «Yes, this is the place that I wanted to bring you to. Here Christ prepared for His mission.»

«But there is nothing here!»

«You are quite right, there is nothing.»

«Who were You with?»

«With My soul and with the Father.»

«Ah! You stayed only for a few hours!»

«No, Judas. Not a few hours. Many days…»

«But who served You? Where did You sleep?»

«My servants were the wild asses that came to sleep in their caves, where I also had taken shelter. My maidservants were the eagles that said to Me with their harsh cries: “It’s daylight” and they flew away to attack their prey. My friends were the little hares that came up almost to My feet, gnawing at the wild herbs. My food and My drink were the same food and drink of the wild flower: the night dew and the sunshine. Nothing else.»

«But why?»

«To prepare well, as you say, for My mission. Things well prepared for are successful. You said so yourself. And My thing was not a small, a useless thing which would glorify Me, the Servant of the Lord, but it was to make men understand what the Lord is, and by means of such understanding, make Him loved in the spirit of truth. The servant that is concerned with his own triumph, and not with the Lord’s, is a miserable man! The servant who is anxious to make a profit, who dreams he will sit on a high throne built on the interests of God, which have been lowered down to the earth, whereas they are celestial interests, is also a miserable servant. He is no longer a servant, except in his external appearance. He is a merchant, a trafficker, a deceitful person, who deceives himself and men and would like to deceive God as well… a wretched man who believes he is a prince, whilst he is a slave. He belongs to the Evil One, his king of falsehood. Here, in this cave, Christ for many days lived fasting and praying to get ready for His mission.

80.3 And where would you have suggested I should have gone to prepare, Judas?»

Judas is puzzled and bewildered. Eventually he replies: «I would not know… I was thinking… to a rabbi… or with the Essenes… I do not know.»

«And was it possible for Me to find a rabbi who would tell Me more than the power and wisdom of God were telling Me? And could I — I the Eternal Word of the Father, Who was present when the Father created man and am aware of the immortal soul by which he is animated and of the power of free capable judgement with which he was endowed by the Creator — would I have gone to derive science and skill from those who deny the immortality of souls, final resurrection and also the freedom of man to act, attributing virtues and vices, holy and wicked deeds to a destiny, which they say is fatal and uncontrollable? Certainly not!

You have a destiny. Yes you do. In the mind of God Who creates you, there is a destiny for you. It is the wish of the Father. And it is a destiny of love, of peace, of glory: “the holiness of being His children”. That is the destiny that was present in the divine mind when

Adam was made from mud and will be present until the creation of the last soul of man.

But the Father does not denigrate you in your position of kings. If a king is a prisoner, he is no longer a king: he is an outcast. You are kings because you are free in your small individual kingdoms. In your “ego”. You can do what you like and how you like.

80.4 Before you and on the boundaries of your small kingdom you have a friendly King and two enemy powers. The Friend shows you the rules that He gives to make His followers happy. He shows them and says: “Here they are. With them, your eternal victory is certain”. He, The Wise and Holy One, shows them to you so that you may put them into practice, if you want to, and thus receive eternal glory.

The two enemy powers are Satan and the flesh. By flesh I mean your flesh and the world: they are the pomps and enticements of the world, that is, the riches, feasts, honours and powers which are obtained from the world and in the world, but are not always obtained honestly and they are used even less honestly when eventually a man reaches them. Satan, the master of the flesh and of the world, speaks also on behalf of the world and of the flesh. He, too, has his rules… Oh! He certainly has! And as your “ego” is enveloped in the flesh, and the flesh is attracted by the flesh, as metal chips are attracted by a magnet, and the singing of the Seducer is sweeter than the warble of a nightingale in love in the moonlight and among perfumed rose bushes, it is easier to follow those rules, and incline towards those powers and say to them: “I consider you my friends. Come in”. Come in… Have you ever seen an ally who remains honest forever, without asking a hundredfold return for the help he has given? That is what those powers do. They go in… And they become the masters: Masters? No: galley sergeants. They tie you, men, to the galley bench, they fasten you with chains, they do not allow you to raise your head from their yoke, and their lash leaves bleeding marks on your backs if you attempt to escape. You either must bear to be torn to pieces and become a heap of shattered flesh, so useless, as flesh, as to be rejected and kicked aside by their cruel feet, or you must die under their blows.

If you can bear that martyrdom, then Mercy will come, the Only One who can still have mercy on that revolting misery, which the world, one of the masters, now loathes and at which the other master, Satan, throws the arrows of his revenge. And Mercy, the Only One, passes by, bends down, picks it up, doctors it, cures it and says: “Come. Do not be afraid. Do not look at yourself. Your wounds are but scars, but they are so numerous that you would be horrified, as they disfigure you. But I do not look at them. I look at your goodwill. Because of your good- will, you are marked. Therefore I say to you: I love you. Come with Me”. And He takes it to His Country. You then understand that Mercy and the friendly King are the same person. You find the rules He had shown you and you did not want to follow. Now you want them… and first you reach the peace of your conscience, then the peace of God.

Tell Me, now. Was that destiny imposed by the Only One on everybody, or did each choose it for himself?»

«It was chosen by each person.»

«You are right, Simon. Was it possible for Me to go to those who deny the blessed resurrection and the gift of God, to be taught?»

Detail

Judas’s reactions as they stand on the Mount of Temptation. Jesus then teaches him that he was to prepare himself—not to seek personal glory, since he is the Servant of the Lord, but to help “people understand who the Lord is.” He emphasizes how wretched is the servant who thinks of his own human triumph rather than that of God. Finally, when Judas suggests that Christ was trained by the Essenes, Jesus refutes his suggestion and emphasizes man’s freedom and his destiny as a child of God.

GRM 81.5-6

The Gospel as revealed to me

Quotation

81.5 «Judas, you said that those jewels are beautiful.»

«Yes, beautiful and valuable.»

«How much will they be worth? I think you are an expert.»

«Yes, I am a good judge. Why do You want to know how much they are worth, Master? Do You want to sell them? Why?»

«Perhaps… Tell Me: how much will they be worth?»

«At least six talents, if they are sold well.»

«Are you sure?»

«Yes, Master. The necklace by itself, so big and heavy, of the purest gold, is worth at least three talents. I have examined it carefully. And also the bracelets… I don’t know how Aglae’s thin wrists could hold them.»

«They were her shackles, Judas.»

«That’s true, Master… But so many would like to have such beautiful shackles!»

«Do you think so? Who?»

«Well… many people!»

«Yes, many who are human beings only by name… And do you know a possible buyer?»

«So, do You want to sell them? And is it for the Baptist? But look, it’s cursed gold!»

«Oh! Human inconsistency! You have just said with evident desire, that many people would love to have that gold, and then you say it is cursed?! Judas, Judas!… It is cursed indeed. But she said: “It will be sanctified if it is cursed for poor and holy people” and that is why she relinquished it, whoever benefits from it may pray for her poor soul which like the embryo of a future butterfly swells in the seed of her heart. Who is holier and poorer than the Baptist? He is equal to Elijah in his mission but greater than Elijah in holiness. He is poorer than I am. I have a Mother and a home… And when one has such things, and pure and holy as I have, one is never forlorn. He no longer has a home, and he has not even got the tomb of his mother. Everything has been violated and desecrated by human iniquity.

81.6 So who is the buyer?»

«There is one in Jericho and there are many in Jerusalem. But the one in Jericho!!! He is a shrewd Levantine gold-beater, a usurer, a middleman, a pander, he is certainly a thief, probably a killer, he is definitely persecuted by Rome. He has changed his name to Isaac, to be considered a Hebrew… But his real name is Diomedes. I know him very well…»

«Yes, we see that!» intervenes Simon Zealot, who speaks little, but notices everything. And he asks: «How come you know him so well?»

«Well,… you know… In order to please certain mighty friends. I went to see him… and did some business… You know… we of the Temple…»

«I know… you do all sorts of jobs» Simon ends with cold irony. Judas flares up, but keeps silent.

«Will he buy?» asks Jesus.

«I think so. He has plenty money. Of course, one must be skilful in selling because the Greek is shrewd and if he realizes he is dealing with an honest person, with a nestling dove, he plucks him mercilessly. But if he has to deal with a vulture like himself…»

«You ought to go, Judas. You are the right man. You are as sly as a fox and as raptorial as a vulture. Oh! Forgive me, Master. I spoke before You!» says Simon Zealot again.

«I am of the same opinion, and I will therefore tell Judas to go. John, you will go with him. We will meet again at sunset, and the meeting place will be the market square. Go. And do your best.»

Judas gets up at once. John’s eyes are imploring like a chastened puppy’s. But Jesus is speaking to the shepherds and does not notice John’s imploring look. And John sets out behind Judas.

Detail

Jesus speaks with the shepherds of Bethlehem about John the Baptist. He could be released in exchange for money. However, they have Aglaé’s jewelry, and Judas can sell it to a man named Diomedes.

GRM 81.6-7

The Gospel as revealed to me

Quotation

«So who is the buyer?»

«There is one in Jericho and there are many in Jerusalem. But the one in Jericho!!! He is a shrewd Levantine gold-beater, a usurer, a middleman, a pander, he is certainly a thief, probably a killer, he is definitely persecuted by Rome. He has changed his name to Isaac, to be considered a Hebrew… But his real name is Diomedes. I know him very well…»

«Yes, we see that!» intervenes Simon Zealot, who speaks little, but notices everything. And he asks: «How come you know him so well?»

«Well,… you know… In order to please certain mighty friends. I went to see him… and did some business… You know… we of the Temple…»

«I know… you do all sorts of jobs» Simon ends with cold irony. Judas flares up, but keeps silent.

«Will he buy?» asks Jesus.

«I think so. He has plenty money. Of course, one must be skilful in selling because the Greek is shrewd and if he realizes he is dealing with an honest person, with a nestling dove, he plucks him mercilessly. But if he has to deal with a vulture like himself…»

«You ought to go, Judas. You are the right man. You are as sly as a fox and as raptorial as a vulture. Oh! Forgive me, Master. I spoke before You!» says Simon Zealot again.

«I am of the same opinion, and I will therefore tell Judas to go. John, you will go with him. We will meet again at sunset, and the meeting place will be the market square. Go. And do your best.»

Judas gets up at once. John’s eyes are imploring like a chastened puppy’s. But Jesus is speaking to the shepherds and does not notice John’s imploring look. And John sets out behind Judas.

81.7 «I would like to see you happy» says Jesus.

«You will always make us happy, Master. May God bless You for it. Is that man a friend of Yours?»

«Yes, he is. Do you think he should not be?»

The shepherd John lowers his head, and keeps silent. Simon, the disciple, speaks: «Only who is good, can see. I am not good, and therefore I do not see what Bounty sees. I see the exterior. He who is good penetrates into the interior too. You, John, see as I do. But the Master is good… and sees…»

«What do you see in Judas, Simon? I want you to tell Me.»

«Well, when I look at him, I think of certain mysterious places which look like dens of wild beasts and malarial ponds. Only a huge tangle can be seen and one is frightened and keeps clear… Instead… behind it there are turtle-doves and nightingales and the soil is rich in healthy waters and beneficial herbs. I want to believe that Judas is like that… I think he must be, because You chose him. And You know…»

«Yes, I know… There are many flaws in the heart of that man… But he has some good points. You saw that yourself in Bethlehem and in Kerioth. And his good points which are humanly good are to be raised to a spiritual goodness. Judas will then be as you would like him to be. He is young…»

«Also John is young…»

«And in your heart, you conclude that he is better. But John is John! Love poor Judas, Simon, I beg you. If you love him,… he will appear to be better.»

«I endeavour to love him, for Your sake. But he breaks all my efforts as if they were water canes… But, Master, there is only one law for me: to do what You want. I will therefore love Judas, although something within me shouts against him and towards myself.»

«What, Simon?»

«I do not know exactly what it is: something that resembles the cry of the night watchman… and says to me: “Do not sleep! Watch!” I do not know. That something has no name. But it is here… in me, against him.»

«Forget about it, Simon. Do not worry about giving it a definition. It is better not to know certain truths… and you might be mistaken. Leave it to your Master. Give Me your love, and you can be sure that it makes Me happy…»

Detail

Jesus asks Judas who the buyer is who might be able to purchase Aglaë’s jewelry. Simon then intervenes, and when Judas leaves with John, the Zealot speaks with the Master of Iscariot. They also mention John the son of Zebedee.

GRM 81.7

The Gospel as revealed to me

Quotation

«What do you see in Judas, Simon? I want you to tell Me.»

«Well, when I look at him, I think of certain mysterious places which look like dens of wild beasts and malarial ponds. Only a huge tangle can be seen and one is frightened and keeps clear… Instead… behind it there are turtle-doves and nightingales and the soil is rich in healthy waters and beneficial herbs. I want to believe that Judas is like that… I think he must be, because You chose him. And You know…»

«Yes, I know… There are many flaws in the heart of that man… But he has some good points. You saw that yourself in Bethlehem and in Kerioth. And his good points which are humanly good are to be raised to a spiritual goodness. Judas will then be as you would like him to be. He is young…»

«Also John is young…»

«And in your heart, you conclude that he is better. But John is John! Love poor Judas, Simon, I beg you. If you love him,… he will appear to be better.»

«I endeavour to love him, for Your sake. But he breaks all my efforts as if they were water canes… But, Master, there is only one law for me: to do what You want. I will therefore love Judas, although something within me shouts against him and towards myself.»

Detail

Jesus speaks to Simon the Zealot.

GRM 82.2-4

The Gospel as revealed to me

Quotation

82.2 Jesus makes His way through the boys and some of the adults who had joined them, and goes towards Judas and John, who are coming from another street. Judas is jubilant. John smiles at Jesus… but does not seem very happy.

«Come, come, Master. I think I have done well. But come with me. It is not possible to speak here in the street.»

«Where, Judas?»

«To the inn. I have already booked four rooms… oh! nothing special, don’t worry. Only to rest in a bed after so much discomfort in all this heat, and to have a meal like men and not like birds perched on branches, and also to talk in peace. I sold the jewels very well, didn’t I, John?»

John nods in assent but not very enthusiastically. But Judas is so pleased with his work that he does not notice either that Jesus is not very happy at the prospect of comfortable lodgings or that John is even less enthusiastic about his transactions. And he goes on: «As I had sold at a higher price than I had estimated, I said: “It is fair that I should take a small amount, one hundred coins, for our beds and meals. If we are exhausted, although we always had something to eat, Jesus must be completely worn out”. I am obliged to ensure that my Master is not taken ill! An obligation of love, because You love me, and I love You… There is room also for you and the sheep» he says to the shepherds. «I have seen to everything.»

Jesus does not say one word. He follows him with the others.

They arrive in a smaller square. Judas says: «See that house without any windows opening on the street and with such a narrow little door that it looks like a crack? It’s Diomedes, the gold-beater’s house. It looks like a poor house, doesn’t it? But there is enough gold in there to buy the whole of Jericho and… ah! ah!» Judas laughs maliciously… «amongst all that gold many jewels and plates can be found, as well as other things, belonging to the most influential people in Israel. Diomedes… oh! they all pretend they do not know him, whereas they are all acquainted with him: from the Herodians down to… to everybody. On that plain, smooth wall, one could write: “Mystery and Secret”. If those walls could speak! Then you would not be scandalised at the way I negotiated this business, John! You… you would die, choked with amazement and scruples. By the way, listen, Master. Never send me again with John on certain business. He almost ruined everything. He cannot take a hint, he cannot deny things, whereas with shrewd men like Diomedes one must be quick and outspoken.»

John grumbles: «You were saying certain things. So unforeseen and so… so… Yes, Master. Do not send me again. I am only good at being kind and loving… I…»

«It is most unlikely that we shall ever need such transactions again» answers Jesus, very seriously.

«That is the hotel over there. Come, Master. I will do the talking, because I arranged everything.»

82.3 They go in, and Judas speaks to the landlord, who has the sheep taken to a stable, while he himself takes the guests into a little room where there are two mat-beds, some chairs and a table already laid. He then withdraws.

«I will tell you what happened at once, Master, while the shepherds are settling the sheep.»

«I am listening.»

«John can say whether I am telling the truth.»

«I do not doubt it. No oath or witness is required among honest men. Tell Me.»

«We arrived in Jericho at midday. We were wet with perspiration, like pack-animals. I did not want to give Diomedes the impression that I was in urgent need. So first of all, I came here, I refreshed myself, I put on clean clothes, and I got John to do the same. Oh! He would not hear of having his hair sorted and perfumed. But I had made out my plans, on my way here!… When it was almost evening, I said: “Let’s go”. By that time, we were well rested and fresh like two wealthy people on a pleasure trip. When we were about to arrive at Diomedes’ abode, I said to John: “Always agree to what I say. Do not contradict me, and be quick in taking a hint”. But I should have left him outside! He did not help at all. On the contrary… Fortunately, I am as quick as two people, and I managed.

The exciseman was coming out of his house. “Very well!” I said. “If he is coming out, we will find the money and what I want to make a comparison”. Because the exciseman, being a usurer and a thief like all his kind, always has necklaces taken with threats and usury from the poor people whom he taxes more than is fair, in order to have plenty to spend in feasting and women. And he is very friendly with Diomedes, who buys and sells gold and flesh… We went in after I had made myself known. I said: we went in. Because there is a difference between going into the entrance hall, where he pretends to be doing an honest job, and going down into the underground room, where he does his real business. One must be well known to him to be introduced there. As soon as he saw me, he said: “Do you want to sell more gold? We are going through hard times, and I have little money”. His usual old story. I replied: “I have not come to sell, but to buy. Have you any jewels for a lady? But they must be beautiful, valuable, heavy, in pure gold!” Diomedes was amazed. And he asked me: “Do you want a woman?” “Never mind that” I replied to him. “They are not for me. They are for this friend of mine who is getting married and wishes to buy the jewels for his beloved bride”.

At this point, John began to behave like a child. Diomedes, who was looking at him, saw him turn purple, and being a filthy old man, he said: “Ah! the boy has only heard the mention of his bride, and he is on heat. Is your woman very beautiful?” he asked. I kicked John to rouse him, and to make him understand not to behave foolishly. But he replied “Yes” as if he had been strangled and Diomedes became suspicious. Then I spoke: ·’Whether she is beautiful or not is none of your business, old man. She will never be one of the women on account of whom you will go to hell. She is an honest virgin, and will soon be an honest wife. Show us your gold. I am his best man and it is my task to help the young man… I am a Judaean citizen”. “He is a Galilean, is he not?” Your hair always gives you away. “Is he rich?” “Yes, very”.

We then went downstairs, and Diomedes opened his coffers and treasure-chests. But tell the truth, John. Did we not seem to be in Heaven with all the jewels and all the gold? Necklaces, wreaths, bracelets, earrings, hairnets of gold and precious stones, hairpins, buckles, rings… ah! what magnificence! With much haughtiness, I picked a necklace more or less like Aglae’s, and rings, buckles, bracelets, everything like I had in my bag, and the same quantity. Diomedes was surprised and he kept asking: “What! Some more? But who is this man? And who is the bride? A princess?” When I had everything I wanted, I said: “The price?”.

Oh! What a chain of preparatory moaning on the times, taxes risks, thieves! And another chain of assurances on his honesty! And then his reply: “Just because it’s you, I’ll tell you the truth. Without any exaggeration. But not even one penny less. I want twelve silver talents”. “Thief!” I said. And I went on: “Let’s go, John. In Jerusalem we will find someone who is not such a thief as he is” and I pretended I was going out. He ran after me. “My great friend, my beloved friend, come, listen to your poor servant. I cannot accept less. It’s impossible. Look. I’ll make an effort at the cost of ruining myself. I’ll do it because you have always honoured me with your friendship, and you made me do good business. Eleven talents, there you are. That is what I would pay if I had to buy that gold from someone starving. Not a penny less. It would be like bleeding my veins”. Is that not what he said? He made me laugh and he disgusted me at the same time.

When I saw he was quite determined on the price, I pulled a fast one on him. “Dirty old rascal. Bear in mind that I do not want to buy, on the contrary, I want to sell. This is what I want to sell. Look. It is as beautiful as yours. Gold from Rome in the latest fashion. It will sell immediately. You can have it for eleven talents. Exactly what you asked for yours. You fixed the price, and you pay”. You should have heard him. “This is treachery! You betrayed the esteem I held you in! You want to ruin me! I cannot pay all that!” he shouted. “You appraised its value. So pay!” “I cannot”. “Look, I’ll take it to somebody else”. “No, my friend, don’t”, and he stretched out his hooked hands towards Aglae’s heap of gold. “Well, then, pay: I should ask for twelve talents. But I will be satisfied with the last price you asked”. “I cannot”. “Usurer! Look, I have a witness here and I can report you as a thief…” and I mentioned other virtues of his which I will not repeat on account of this boy…

At last, as I was anxious to sell and settle the matter quickly, I whispered a promise in his ear, something that I will not keep… What weight has a promise made to a thief? And I sealed the bargain at ten and a half. We came away while he was crying and offering his friendship and… women. And John was almost in tears. What does it matter if they think you are a depraved man! Nothing, providing you are not. Don’t you know that the world is like that, and that you are a failure in the world? A young man who has not had any experience of women? Who do you think will believe you? Or if they believe you, well! I would not like them to think of me what they may think of you, if they believe you do not desire women.

Here, Master. Count them Yourself. I had a pile of coins. But I went to the exciseman and I said to him: “Take this rubbish and give me the talents Isaac gave you”. That was the last bit of information I got after closing the matter.

82.4 But the last thing I said to Isaac-Diomedes was: “Remember that the Judas of the Temple no longer exists. Now I am the disciple of a holy man. Pretend therefore that you never met me, if your life is dear to you”. And I was on the point of wringing his neck because he gave me a sharp answer.»

«What did he say to you?» asks Simon, coldly.

«He said: “You, the disciple of a holy man? I will never believe it, or I will soon see your holy man here, asking for a woman”. He said: “Diomedes is an old disgrace of the world. But you are a new one. And I may still change, because I became what I am when I was old. But you will not change. You were born like that”. Filthy old man! He denies Your power, see?»

«And being a good Greek, he speaks the truth.»

«What do you mean, Simon? Are you referring to me?»

«No. I am referring to everyone. He is a man who knows gold and men’s hearts the same way. He is a thief, the most filthy of all the filthy trades. But one perceives in him the philosophy of the great Greeks. He knows man, the animal with seven sinful jaws, the octopus that suffocates goodness, honesty, love and many other things, both in itself and in others.»

«But he does not know God.»

«And would you like to teach him?»

«Yes, I would. Why? It’s the sinners that need to know God.»

«True. But… the Master must know Him to teach Him.»

«And do I not know Him?»

«Peace, My friends. The shepherds are coming. Do not let us upset their souls with our quarrels. Have you counted the money? That is enough. Fulfil all your actions as you fulfilled this one, and I repeat it once again, in future, if you can, do not tell lies, not even to accomplish a good deed.»

Detail

Judas and John return from negotiations with Diomedes to sell Aglaé’s jewelry, and Judas… acts like Judas.

Jean’s character is highlighted in 82.2 and at the end of 82.3.

GRM 82.4

The Gospel as revealed to me

Quotation

«But the last thing I said to Isaac-Diomedes was: “Remember that the Judas of the Temple no longer exists. Now I am the disciple of a holy man. Pretend therefore that you never met me, if your life is dear to you”. And I was on the point of wringing his neck because he gave me a sharp answer.»

«What did he say to you?» asks Simon, coldly.

«He said: “You, the disciple of a holy man? I will never believe it, or I will soon see your holy man here, asking for a woman”. He said: “Diomedes is an old disgrace of the world. But you are a new one. And I may still change, because I became what I am when I was old. But you will not change. You were born like that”. Filthy old man! He denies Your power, see?»

«And being a good Greek, he speaks the truth.»

«What do you mean, Simon? Are you referring to me?»

«No. I am referring to everyone. He is a man who knows gold and men’s hearts the same way. He is a thief, the most filthy of all the filthy trades. But one perceives in him the philosophy of the great Greeks. He knows man, the animal with seven sinful jaws, the octopus that suffocates goodness, honesty, love and many other things, both in itself and in others.»

«But he does not know God.»

«And would you like to teach him?»

«Yes, I would. Why? It’s the sinners that need to know God.»

«True. But… the Master must know Him to teach Him.»

«And do I not know Him?»

«Peace, My friends. The shepherds are coming. Do not let us upset their souls with our quarrels. Have you counted the money? That is enough. Fulfil all your actions as you fulfilled this one, and I repeat it once again, in future, if you can, do not tell lies, not even to accomplish a good deed.»

Detail

Judas went to see a jewelry dealer in Jericho named Diomedes. As he was leaving, he recounted what had happened.