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GRM 38.6

The Gospel as revealed to me

Quotation

38.6 There is a knock at the door. Joseph walks quickly across the orchard and the room and opens it.

«Peace to you, Alphaeus and Mary!»

«And peace and blessings to you.»

It is Joseph’s brother with his wife. A rustic cart, drawn by a strong donkey, is outside in the street.

«Did you have a good trip?»

«Very good. And the children?»

«They are in the garden with Mary.»

But the children have already come to greet their mother. Also Mary comes, holding Jesus by the hand. The two sisters-in-law kiss each other.

«Have they been good?»

«Very good, and very dear. Are the relatives all well?»

«Yes they all are. They send You their regards, and they have sent You many presents from Cana. Grapes, apples, cheese, eggs, honey. And… Joseph? I have found just what you wanted for Jesus. It is on the cart, in the round basket.» Alphaeus’ wife smiles. She bends over Jesus Who is looking at her with His eyes wide open, she kisses Him on those two strips of blue and says: «Do you know what I have for you? Guess.»

Jesus thinks, but He cannot guess. I doubt whether He does it deliberately, to give Joseph the joy of giving Him a surprise. Joseph in fact comes in, carrying a large round basket. He lays it down on the floor in front of Jesus, unties the rope which is holding the lid on, he lifts it… and a little white sheep, a real flock of foam, appears sleeping in the very clean hay.

Jesus utters an «Oh!» of surprise and happiness and He is about to rush towards the little animal, but then He turns round and runs to Joseph, who is still bent down as before, He embraces him, and kisses him, thanking him.

GRM 38.7-8

The Gospel as revealed to me

Quotation

«But this year You also will have to send Jesus to school. It is time.»

«I will never send Jesus to school,» says Mary resolutely. It is most unusual to hear Her talk in this way and above all to hear Her talk before Joseph.

«Why? The Child must learn to be ready in good time to pass His exam when He comes of age…»

«The Child will be ready. But He will not go to school. That is quite definite.»

«You will be the only woman in Israel to do that.»

«I will be the only one. But that is what I am going to do. Isn’t that right, Joseph?»

«Yes, that’s correct. There is no need for Jesus to go to school. Mary was brought up in the Temple, and She knows the Law as well as any doctor. She will be His Teacher. That’s what I want, too.»

«You are spoiling the Boy.»

«You cannot say that. He is the best boy in Nazareth. Have you ever heard Him cry, or be naughty, or be disobedient, or lack respect?»

«No. That’s true. But He will do all that if You continue to spoil Him.»

«You do not necessarily spoil your children just because you keep them at home. To keep them at home implies loving them with good common sense and wholeheartedly. And that is how we love our Jesus, and since Mary is better educated than a teacher, She will be Jesus’ Teacher.»

«And when Your Jesus is a Man, He will be like a silly little woman frightened even of flies.»

«He will not. Mary is a strong woman, and She will give Him a manly education. I am not a coward, and I can give Him man-like examples. Jesus is a creature without any physical or moral faults. He will grow, therefore, upright and strong, both in His body and in His spirit. You can be sure of that, Alphaeus. He will not be a disgrace to the family. In any case, that is what I have decided, and that is all.»

«Perhaps Mary has decided, and you…»

«And if it were so? Is it not fair that two, who love each other, should have the same thoughts and the same wishes, so that each may accept the wishes of the other as if they were his own? If Mary should wish silly things, I would say to Her: ‘No’. But She is asking for something which is full of wisdom, and I agree, and I make it my own. We love each other, we do as we did the first day, and we shall go on doing so as long as we live. Is that right, Mary?»

«Yes, Joseph. And let us hope it will never happen, but when one should die without the other, we will still go on loving each other.»

Joseph pats Mary on the head as if She were a young daughter and She looks at him with Her serene loving eyes.

38.8 Her sister-in-law interferes: «You are quite right. I wish I could teach! Our children at school learn evil and good. At home they only learn what is good. But I do not know whether… if Mary…»

«What is it you want, My dear sister-in-law? Speak freely. You know that I love you and I am happy when I can do something that pleases you.»

«I was thinking… James and Judas are only a little older than Jesus. They are already going to school… for what they have learned!… Jesus instead already knows the Law so well… I would like… eh, I mean, if I asked You to take them as well, when You teach Jesus? I think they would behave better and be better educated. After all, they are cousins, and it is only fair that they should love one another like brothers. Oh! I would be so happy!»

«If Joseph wants, and your husband agrees, I am quite willing. It is the same to speak to one as to speak to three. And it is a joy to go through the whole Bible. Let them come.»

The three children, who have come in very quietly, are listening and are awaiting the final decision.

«They will drive You to despair, Mary,» says Alphaeus.

«No! They are always good with Me. You will be good if I teach you, will you not?»

The two boys move near Mary, one on Her left side, the other on Her right, they place their arms around Her shoulders, they lean their little heads on Her shoulders, and they promise all the good in the world.

«Let them try, Alphaeus, and let Me try. I am sure you will not be dissatisfied with the test. They can come every day from the sixth hour until evening. It will be enough, believe Me. I know how to teach without tiring them. You must keep their attention and let them relax at the same time. You must understand them, love them, and be loved by them, if you wish to get good results. And you will love Me, will you not?»

Two big kisses are the answer.

«See?»

«I see. I can only say: ‘Thank You’. And what will Jesus say, when He sees His Mummy busy with others? What do you say, Jesus?»

«I say: ‘Happy are those who listen to Her and build their dwelling near Hers’. As for Wisdom, happy are those who are My Mother’s friends, and I am happy that those whom I love are Her friends.»

«But who puts such words on the lips of the Child?» Alphaeus asks, astonished.

«Nobody, brother. Nobody in this world».

The vision ends here.

GRM 38.9

The Gospel as revealed to me

Quotation

38.9 Jesus says:

«And Mary was My teacher and the teacher of James and Judas. That is why we loved one another like brothers, not only because of our relationship, but for our science and the fact that we had grown up together, like three shoots supported by one pole only: My Mother. There was no other doctor in Israel like My sweet Mother. Seat of Wisdom, and of true Wisdom, She taught us for the world, and for Heaven. I say: ‘She taught us’ because I was Her pupil just like My cousins. And the ‘seal’ was kept on the secret of God against Satan’s investigations, and it was safeguarded by the appearance of a normal life.

Did you enjoy this sweet scene? Now be in peace. Jesus is with you.»

GRM 39

The Gospel as revealed to me

Detail

The Virgin prepares clothes for Jesus with Mary of Alphaeus. She dyes his clothes. It seems that she obtained the color through her embroidery, and that this gift came from Rome. In any case, the Mother of Christ thanks her relative for her help, and she declares that Jesus is like a son to her.

The vision stops and resumes later. Maria describes Jesus at the age of twelve. He is with his parents and relatives, surrounded and loved. Mary asks Joseph to bless him, so that their Child will draw strength from him, and she will learn to detach herself from him a little more. Joseph assures her that their relationship will not change, and that he will not compete with her for the Son they hold so dear. Mary kisses Joseph's hand in an affectionate gesture, and the patriarch of the Holy Family blesses them both. Then they set off...

GRM 39.2-3

The Gospel as revealed to me

Quotation

39.2 I see Mary bending over a tub, or rather a terracotta container, in which She stirs something that steams in the cool clear air which fills the kitchen garden in Nazareth.

It must be the depth of winter, because, with the exception of the olive-trees, all the plants and trees are bare and look like skeletons. High above, the sky is very clear and there is a beautiful sunshine. But it does not mitigate the bitterly cold wind that shakes the bare boughs and the little green-grey branches of the olive-trees.

Our Lady is wearing a heavy dark-brown dress, which is so dark that it is almost black, and She has tied in front of it a rough piece of cloth, like an apron, to protect it. She takes out of the vessel the stick with which She was stirring its contents and I can see some beautiful ruby-red drops dripping from it. Mary looks at them, She wets Her finger with them, checks the colour against Her apron and seems satisfied.

She goes into the house and then comes out with a lot of skeins of snow-white wool. She dips them patiently and carefully into the tub, one by one.

39.3 While She is busy doing that, Her sister-in-law, Mary of Alphaeus, comes in through Joseph’s workshop. They greet each other, and start conversing.

«Is it coming all right?» asks Mary of Alphaeus.

«I hope so.»

«That Gentile lady assured me that it is exactly the colour, and that is exactly how they do it in Rome. She gave it to me only because of You, because of the embroidery work You did for her. She said that not even in Rome is there anyone who can embroider so well. You must have become blind doing it…»

Mary smiles and shakes Her head as if to say: «It was a mere trifle!»

Her sister-in-law looks at the last skeins of wool, before handing them over to Mary. «How beautifully You have spun them! They are so thin and smooth that they look like hair. You do everything so well. And You are so quick! Will these last ones be of a lighter colour?»

«Yes, they are for the tunic. The mantle is darker.»

The two women work together at the tub. They then pull out the skeins of a beautiful purple colour and they run quickly to dip them into the ice-cold water that fills the little vessel under the thin spring of water that tumbles babbling softly. They rinse them over and over again, then they lay the skeins on canes which they fasten to the branches of the trees.

«They will dry very well and rapidly in this wind,» says Her sister-in-law.

«Let us go to Joseph. There is a fire in there. You must be frozen,» says Our Blessed Lady. «It was very kind of you to help Me. I did it very quickly and without working so much. I am very grateful to you.»

«Oh! Mary! What would I not do for You! To be near You is a great joy. And then… all this work is for Jesus. And He is such a dear, Your Son!… I will feel that He is also my Son, if I help You with His feast when He comes of age.»

The two women go into the workshop, which is full of the smell of planed wood, as is usual in carpenters’ workshops.

GRM 39.4

The Gospel as revealed to me

Quotation

(...) Now He is at home with His Mother, in front of Him there is Saint Joseph who is smiling lovingly, and there are His little cousins who admire Him, and His aunt Mary of Alphaeus who is patting Him… He is happy. My Jesus needs love to be happy. And in this moment He has it.

He is dressed in a loose woollen tunic which is a light ruby red colour. It is soft, perfectly woven in its compact thinness. Round the neck, in the front, at the ends of the long wide sleeves and at the bottom of the tunic which hangs down to the ground, so that only His feet can be seen, there is a Greek fret which is not embroidered, but woven in a darker colour into the ruby of the tunic. He is wearing new sandals which appear to be very well made, they are not just the usual soles tied to the feet by means of straps of leather. His tunic must be the work of His Mother because Her sister-in-law admires and praises it.

Detail

The Holy Family prepares to leave Jerusalem for the feast of the Majoration of Jesus.

GRM 44

The Gospel as revealed to me

Detail

Jesus prepares to leave Nazareth. Mary is clearly distressed. Her Son eats, and after her bag is ready, Mary isolates herself for a moment. Jesus goes to join her, and it turns out that she is weeping in Joseph's workshop. Jesus speaks to her and they both go into the garden, where Jesus gives her his recommendations. Then they recite the Lord's Prayer together, to lean on God in this hour of trial. Jesus then leaves, leaving his Mother in Nazareth.

Christ then gives dictation, and speaks of Mary's suffering following her separation from Christ. For a moment, he explains why he is giving the Work, and how he gives the lessons. Then he declares that this vision applies to all those who must undergo painful renunciation and leave their families. This lesson is for parents and children alike.

Mary has suffered separation from her Son, but she has not rebelled against God's Will. She wept - but who wouldn't have wept, guessing how her Child would suffer? She knew that her relatives were full of human common sense, and that they would not understand Christ's departure or preaching. She knew how her Son would encounter hostility during His ministry. She also wept, suffered and made amends, for all mothers who have to part with their offspring. The tears of the Mother and the Blood of Jesus Christ strengthen those who have to show heroism, and they strengthen consecrated souls and victim souls in particular.

In the hour of trial, Mary prays with Jesus. Suffering does not prevent her from praying, on the contrary. And Jesus tells us that we must always pray with him, for it is Jesus who justifies us.

GRM 45

The Gospel as revealed to me

Detail

John baptizes at the Jordan. Maria hears him preach to the crowd. Meanwhile, Jesus arrives in a very simple way, without showing himself to his Forerunner. But the Forerunner seems to sense something, and turns to face his cousin. He immediately goes to his Lord, and proclaims that he is the Lamb of God. Everything then happens as the Gospel relates. Jesus then gave dictation, saying that John needed no signs. Nevertheless, there was a series of Christic manifestations, so that his nature as God-Man could not be denied by his contemporaries.

GRM 47

The Gospel as revealed to me

Detail

Jesus walks near the ford of the Jordan. A group passes by, and among them are John and James of Zebedee. It is John who notices the Master and naturally goes towards Him, while his brother follows behind. He greets him, calling him the Lamb of God. Jesus asks him whom he is looking for, and the Beloved replies that he is looking for the Master. He knows this because John the Baptist told him so, and he calls him Lamb because that's what he heard the Forerunner call him. John the Baptist is now imprisoned, and they no longer have their guide. However, John shows up, and he introduces James. He asks where Jesus lives, and Jesus points out that whoever follows him will have to abandon everything: "home, parents, way of thinking, even life." He's not a rich man, and you have to be spiritually reborn in God to follow him. The two men nevertheless want to follow him, and Jesus accepts their request.

Christ then gives two dictations. The first deals with purity and virginity, including consecrated virginity. He explains that "there are many ways of being a virgin", and returns to those who make a vow to the Lord. If souls make a vow, but give in to sensuality (even that of thought), they are only half virgins.

The Master then returns to his own temptation in the desert and the sensuality the Devil proposed. Then he dwells on the pure, who see God. Finally, he focuses on John, the Pure One among the disciples, who was his first disciple.

GRM 47.1-3

The Gospel as revealed to me

Quotation

47.1 I see Jesus walking along the green strip of vegetation that borders the Jordan. He has gone back to the same place where He was baptised. He is near the ford that apparently was well known and commonly used to cross to the other bank towards Perea. But the place, which was so crowded before, is now deserted. There are only a few travellers going on foot, or riding donkeys or horses.

Jesus does not seem to be aware of them. He proceeds along His way, northwards, absorbed in His thoughts. When He reaches the ford, He meets a group of men of different ages, who are discussing animatedly, and then they part, some southwards, some northwards.

Amongst those going northwards, I see John and James.

47.2 John is the first to see Jesus, and he points Him out to his brother and companions. They talk a little amongst themselves, and then John starts walking quickly to reach Jesus. James follows him, walking a little slower. The others do not show any interest. They walk slowly while discussing.

When John is near Jesus, about two or three metres behind Him, he shouts: «Lamb of God Who takes away the sins of the world!»

Jesus turns around and looks at him. There are now only a few steps between them. They look at each other: Jesus with His serious, scrutinising look, John with his pure eyes smiling in his beautiful, youthful face, that looks like the face of a girl. He is about twenty years old, and on his rosy cheeks there is only the sign of a blond down, like a golden veil.

«Whom are you looking for?» asks Jesus.

«For You, Master.»

«How do you know I am a Master?»

«The Baptist told me.»

«Well then, why do you call Me Lamb?»

«Because I heard him call You so one day, when You were passing by, just over a month ago.»

«What do you want from Me?»

«I want You to tell us words of eternal life and to comfort us.»

«But who are you?»

«I am John of Zebedee, and this is James, my brother. We are from Galilee, and we are fishermen. But we are also disciples of John. He spoke words of life to us and we listened to him, because we want to follow God and deserve His forgiveness doing penance and thus prepare our hearts for the coming of the Messiah. You are the Messiah. John said so, because he saw the sign of the Dove descending on You. He said to us: “Here is the Lamb of God”. I say to you: Lamb of God Who takes away the sins of the world, give us peace, because we no longer have anyone who may guide us, and our souls are upset.»

«Where is John?»

«Herod has taken him. He is in prison, at Machaerus. The most faithful amongst his disciples have tried to free him. But it is not possible. We are coming from there.

47.3 Let us come with You, Master. Show us where You live.»

«Come. But do you know what you are asking for? He who follows Me will have to leave everything: his home, his relatives, his way of thinking, also his life. I will make you My disciples and My friends, if you wish so. But I have neither wealth nor protection. I am poor, and I shall be even poorer, to the extent of not having a place where I may rest My head and I will be persecuted by My enemies, even more than a lost sheep is pursued by wolves. My doctrine is even more rigid than John’s, because it forbids also resentment. And My doctrine is concerned not so much with external matters, as it is with the soul. You must be re-born if you want to be My disciples. Are you willing to do that?»

«Yes, Master. Only You have words that can give us light. They descend upon us, and where there was darkness and desolation because we had no guide, they shed light and sunshine.»

«Come, then. Let us go. I will teach you on our way.»

Detail

In 47.2, John's physical description.

Annotation

John 1:35-39:

Still the next day, John was there with two of his disciples. Looking at Jesus coming and going, he said, "Behold the Lamb of God! The two disciples heard what he said, and followed Jesus. Turning around, Jesus saw that they were following him, and said to them, "What are you looking for?" They replied, "Rabbi - which means Master - where are you staying?" He said to them, "Come and see. So they went and saw where he was staying, and they stayed with him that day. It was about the tenth hour (about four o'clock in the afternoon).