GRM 185.5-6 · Volume 3
The Gospel as revealed to me
Quotation
185.5
Jesus then says:
«I will not expound the Gospel in the same way as everybody else does. I will illustrate the circumstances preceding the Gospel passage.
Why was I sleeping? Did I perhaps not know that there was going to be a storm? Yes, I knew. Only I knew. Why was I sleeping, then?
The apostles were men, Mary. They were full of goodwill, but still very much “men”. Man thinks he is always capable of everything. When he is really capable of doing something he is full of haughtiness and attachment to his “ability”. Peter, Andrew, James and John were good fishermen and consequently they thought they were unexcelled in handling a boat. As far as they were concerned I was a great “Rabbi”, but a mere nothing as a sailor. Thus they thought I was unable to help them, and when on the boat to cross the Sea of Galilee, they begged Me to sit down because I was not capable of doing anything else. Also their love for Me was behind their attitude, as they did not want Me to do any material work. But their attachment to their own ability was greater than their love.
I do not impose Myself, Mary, except in exceptional cases. I generally leave you free and wait. On that day, tired as I was and being requested to rest, that is to let them act, clever as they were, I went to sleep. My sleep also included the ascertainment of how man is “man” and wants to do things by himself without feeling that God asks but to help him. I saw in those “spiritual deaf men”, in those “spiritual blind men”, all the spiritual deaf and blind people, who throughout centuries would ruin themselves, because “they wanted to do by themselves”, although I was bent over their needs awaiting to be asked to help them.
When Peter shouted: “Save us!”, My bitterness dropped like a stone. I am not “man”, I am the God-Man. I do not behave as you do. When someone rejects your advice or your help, and you see him in trouble, even if you are not so bad as to rejoice at it, you are uncharitable enough to look at him disdainfully and indifferently, without being moved by his shouts for help. Your attitude means: “When I wanted to help you, you did not want me? Well, help yourself now”. But I am Jesus. I am the Saviour. And I save, Mary. I always save as soon as I am asked to.
185.6
The poor men might object: “In that case, why do You allow single or collective storms to break out?”. If by My power I should destroy Evil, you would consider yourselves the authors of Good, which in actual fact is a gift of Mine, and you would not remember Me any longer, You would never remember Me. My poor children, you are in need of sorrow to remember that you have a Father. As the prodigal son remembered he had a father when he was hungry.
Misfortunes convince you of your nothingness, of your ignorance, which is the cause of so many errors, of your wickedness, the cause of so much mourning and grief, of your faults, the cause of the punishments which you inflict upon yourselves, as well as of My existence, of My power and of My goodness.
That is what today’s Gospel teaches you. “Your” Gospel of the present time, my poor children. Call Me. Jesus does not sleep except when He is in anguish because He sees that He is not loved by you. Call Me and I will come.»
Detail
Maria has just seen the storm subside.
Annotation
Gospel of Matthew 8, 23-27
Mt 8, 23-27 : As Jesus got into the boat, his disciples followed him. And behold, the sea became so rough that the boat was covered by the waves. But he was asleep. The disciples went to him and woke him up, saying, "Lord, save us! We are lost." But he said to them, "Why are you so fearful, men of little faith?" Then Jesus stood up and rebuked the winds and the sea, and there was a great calm. The people were amazed, saying, "Who is this that even the winds and the sea obey him?"
Gospel of Mark 4, 37-41
Mk 4, 37-41 : A violent storm came up. The waves were crashing against the boat, so that it was already filling up. He was asleep on the cushion at the stern. The disciples woke him up and said, "Master, we're lost; don't you care?" Awakened, he threatened the wind and said to the sea, "Silence, be quiet!" The wind died down, and there was a great calm. Jesus said to them: "Why are you so fearful? Have you not yet faith?" Seized with great fear, they said to each other, "Who is this that even the wind and the sea obey him?"
Gospel of Luke 8, 23-25
Lk 8, 23-25 : While they were sailing, Jesus fell asleep. A storm came up on the lake. They were submerged and in great peril. The disciples went to him and woke him up, saying, "Master, master! We're lost!" And he, awakening, threatened the wind and the turbulent waves. They calmed down, and calm was restored. Then Jesus said to them, "Where is your faith?" Filled with fear, they were astonished and said to one another, "Who is this that he even commands the winds and waves, and they obey him?"