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GRM 54

The Gospel as revealed to me

Detail

Jesus is at the olive grove in Gethsemane. The master of the house - Jonah - tells Christ that three men are waiting for him, including one who is presumably sick and a leper. Jesus goes to the latter first: it's Simon the Zealot, asking for healing. The Savior grants his wish, and the future apostle is completely healed. Then he turns his attention to the two newcomers: Judas of Keroth and Thomas. The former ardently wants to follow the Savior, to share in his glory "according to Heaven". But Jesus asks him to think it over and refuses to take him on straight away. He thinks he's being impulsive, but doesn't believe in his constancy. Jesus asks him to discern and tells him that he will be in the Temple for Pentecost. Thomas, for his part, wants to follow him too, but is frightened by the words spoken to Judas. Jesus reassures him, saying that presumption is ruin, but that fear coupled with humility can be a help. After the disciple has left, Jesus explains to John and the others why he has made a difference between the two disciples. Thomas is in this sense more perfect, because he wants to follow him out of love, not because of a desire for human glory. All the disciples present then affirm that they love Jesus, and when they ask if they are perfect, Jesus explains that God alone is perfect, but that they will become so if they persist in their will to love.

After speaking of his nature as the Word of God, and his perfection as the God-Man, Jesus describes himself as the Son of Man. He then answers Peter's question about Jude's absence, and answers Andrew's question about why he performed a miracle in Cana and not in his homeland. The Lord also speaks of his Mother.

Finally, Christ welcomes Dydymus, who has retraced his steps, and thus welcomes Thomas among his disciples.

GRM 54.1

The Gospel as revealed to me

Quotation

It must still be Passover time, because there is always a lot of people in town.

It is evening and many people are hurrying home. Jesus also goes towards the house where He is a guest. It is not the house of the last Supper, which is in town, although not far from its walls. This house, instead, is a real country house, amongst thick olive-trees. From the rustic open space in front of the house one can see the olive-trees down the terraces of the hill, right down to a little torrent, with very little water, which flows away along the valley formed by two hills: on the top of one there is the Temple, on the other hill there are only olive-trees. Jesus is at the first slopes of the latter hill, which rises smoothly, completely covered with peaceful trees.

«John, there are two men awaiting your friend» says an elderly man, who must be the farmer or the owner of the olive-grove. I would say that John knows him.

«Where are they? Who are they?»

«I don’t know. One is certainly a Judaean. The other… I don’t know. I didn’t ask him.»

«Where are they?»

«In the kitchen, waiting, and… and… yes… there is another man who is all covered with sores. I made him stay over there, because I am afraid he may be a leper. He says he wants to see the Prophet Who spoke in the Temple.»

Jesus, Who up to this moment had been silent, says: «Let us go to him first. Tell the others to come if they so wish. I will speak to them there, in the olive-grove.» And He makes for the place indicated by the man.

«And what about us? What shall we do?» asks Peter.

«Come, if you want.»

GRM 54.3-5

The Gospel as revealed to me

Quotation

«Is it you that wanted Me?» He asks the two strangers. «Here I am. Who are you?»

«We heard You the other evening… in the Temple. We looked for You in town. A man, who said he is a relative of Yours, told us You stay here.»

«Why are you looking for Me?»

«To follow You, if You will allow us, because You have words of truth.»

«Follow Me? But do you know where I am going?»

«No, Master, but certainly to glory.»

«Yes. But not to a glory of this world. I am going to a glory which is in Heaven and is conquered by virtue and sacrifice. Why do you want to follow Me?» He asks them again.

«To take part in Your glory.»

«According to Heaven?»

«Yes, according to Heaven.»

«Not everybody is able to go there. Because Mammon lays more snares for those yearning for Heaven than for the others. And only he who has strong willpower can resist. Why follow Me, if to follow Me implies a continuous struggle against the enemy, which is in us, against the hostile world, and against the Enemy who is Satan?»

«Because that is the desire of our souls, which have been conquered by You. You are holy and powerful. We want to be Your friends.»

«Friends!!!» Jesus is silent and sighs. Then He stares at the one who has spoken all the time and who has now removed the mantle-hood from his head, and is bareheaded. He is Judas of Kerioth. «Who are you? You speak better than a man of the people.»

«I am Judas, the son of Simon. I come from Kerioth. But I am of the Temple. I am waiting for and dreaming of the King of the Jews. I heard You speak like a king. I saw Your kingly gestures. Take me with You.»

«Take you? Now? At once? No.»

«Why not, Master?»

«Because it is better to examine ourselves carefully before venturing on very steep roads.»

«Do You not believe I am sincere?»

«You have said it. I believe in your impulsiveness. But I do not believe in your perseverance. Think about it, Judas. I am going away now and I will be back for Pentecost. If you are in the Temple, you will see Me. Examine yourself.

54.4

And who are you?».

«I am another one who saw You. I would like to be with You. But now I am frightened.»

«No. Presumption ruins people. Fear may be an impediment, but it is a help when it originates from humbleness. Do not be afraid. Think about it, too, and when I come back…»

«Master, You are so holy! I am afraid of not being worthy. Nothing else. Because I do not doubt my love…»

«What is your name?»

«Thomas, also known as Didymus.»

«I will remember your name. Go in peace.»

Jesus dismisses them and He goes into the hospitable house for supper.

54.5

The six disciples who are with Him want to know many things.

«Why, Master, why did You treat them differently? Because there was a difference. Both of them had the same impulsiveness…» asks John.

«My friend, also the same impulsiveness may have a different taste and bring about a different effect. They both certainly had the same impulsiveness. But they were not the same in their purposes. And the one who appears less perfect is, in fact, more perfect, because he has no incentive to human glory. He loves Me because he loves Me.»

GRM 54.8

The Gospel as revealed to me

Quotation

54.8 There is a knocking at the door. It is Thomas once again. He goes in and throws himself at Jesus’ feet. «Master… I cannot wait until You come back. Let me come with You. I am full of faults, but I have my love, my only real great treasure. It is Yours, it’s for You. Let me come, Master…»

Jesus lays His hand on Thomas’ head. «You may stay, Didymus. Follow Me. Blessed are those who are sincere and persistent in their will. You are all blessed. You are more than relatives to Me, because you are My children and My brothers, not according to the blood, that dies, but according to the will of God and to your spiritual wishes. Now I tell you that I have no closer relative than those who do the will of My Father, and you do it, because you want what is good.»

The vision ends in this way.

GRM 55

The Gospel as revealed to me

Detail

Andrew, Peter, James and John, Bartholomew, Philip, and Thomas are at the house of Jonah, the guardian of Gethsemane. Thomas tells how he came back to the scene. Jesus questions him, and offers him to stay. The apostle is happy, and Jesus takes the opportunity to teach the apostolic group a lesson about hospitality. Peter grumbles and makes a few remarks, saying that those we welcome are not always well-intentioned, and the Lord replies. Then he asks Thomas to go and find Simon the Zealot in the tombs, and to accompany him until he is purified. They meet again later. As for Judas, he encourages him not to go and see him, or even to seek his presence.

Peter grumbles again, and Christ asks him why. Simon of Jonah then points out that he gives missions to those who have just arrived, but not to the first disciples who followed him. The Master smiles at his words, and points out that, if he doesn't give such missions, it's because he knows them and is sure of them. The one who must be put to the test is the one who is not yet sure, the Savior asserts, and yet Christ esteemed them so much that he took his first apostles "without demanding proofs and without feeling the need to give you any". Peter is reassured and asks for forgiveness. Jesus, for his part, asks him not to argue about the places and merits of each. The Redeemer reminds them that He Himself is man's servant, and so He reminds them to remain humble.

Finally, Jesus gives Thomas the portrait of Simon the Zealot. All that remains is to find him...

GRM 55.1.3.5

The Gospel as revealed to me

Quotation

This morning, as I recovered my senses after a very heavy torpor which had lasted many hours, while I was praying awaiting daylight, I saw the resumption of the vision.

I say resumption because we are still in the same place: the low, wide kitchen, with its dark, smoky walls, dimly lit up by the small flame of an oil lamp on the rustic table. It is a long narrow table at which eight people are sitting: Jesus and His six disciples, and the landlord, four on each side.

Jesus, sitting on a stool — the only seats here are three-legged stools, real country furniture — is still turned around speaking to Thomas. Jesus’ hand has fallen from Thomas’ head onto his shoulder. Jesus says: «Stand up, My friend. Have you had any supper yet?»

«No, Master. I walked a few yards with the other fellow who was with me, then I left him and I came back saying that I wanted to speak to the healed leper… I said that because I thought he would disdain approaching an impure man. I guessed right. But I wanted to see You, not the leper… I wanted to say to You: “Please take me”… I wandered up and down the olive-grove until a young man asked me what I was doing. He must have thought I was ill-disposed. He was near a pillar, at the boundary of the olive-grove.»

The landlord smiles. «It’s my son» he explains and adds: «He is on guard at the oil-mill. In the caves under the mill, we still have almost all the crop of the year. It was a very good one and we made a lot of oil. And when there are large crowds about, robbers always get together to plunder unguarded places. Eight years ago, just at Parasceve, they robbed us of everything. Since then we keep a good watch one night each. His mother has gone to take him his supper.»

«Well, he asked me: “What do you want?”, and he spoke in such a tone that to save my back from his stick, I answered at once: “I am looking for the Master Who lives here”. He then replied: “If what you say is true, come to the house”. And he brought me here. It was he who knocked at the door and he did not go away until he heard my first words.»

«Do you live far away?»

«I live on the other side of the town, near the Eastern Gate.»

«Are you alone?»

«I was with some relatives. But they have gone to stay with other relatives on the road to Bethlehem. I stayed here to look for You day and night, until I found You.»

Jesus smiles and says: «So no one is waiting for you?»

«No, Master.»

«It is a long way, it is a dark night, the Roman patrols are around the town. I say: stay with us, if you wish.»

«Oh! Master!» Thomas is happy.

«Make room for him. And each of us will give something to our brother.» Jesus gives him the portion of cheese He had in front of Him. He explains to Thomas: «We are poor and our supper is almost over. But there is so much heart in those who offer.» And He says to John who is sitting beside Him: «Give your seat to our friend.»

John gets up at once and sits down at the end of the table near the landlord.

«Sit down, Thomas, and eat.» (...)

[Jesus teaches the apostles a lesson about hospitality and charity. Then he turns his attention back to Thomas.]

Jesus addresses Thomas: «My friend, before, in the olive-grove I said to you: “When I come back here, if you are still willing, you will be one of My disciples”. Now I say to you: “Are you willing to do Jesus a favour?”»

«Most certainly.»

«And if this favour should cost you some sacrifice?»

«There is no sacrifice in serving You. What is it You want?»

«I wanted to say… but you may have some business, some affections…»

«None, none! I have You! Tell me.»

«Listen. Tomorrow at daybreak the leper will leave the sepulchres to find someone who will inform the priest. You will be the first to go to the sepulchres. It is charity. And you will shout: “Come out, you, the one who was cleansed yesterday. I have been sent by Jesus of Nazareth, the Messiah of Israel, He who cleansed you”. Let the world of the “living dead” know My name, let them throb with hope, and let those come to Me, who will have faith in addition to hope, that I may heal them. It is the first form of purity that I am bringing, the first form of the resurrection, of which I am the lord. One day I will grant a greater purity… One day the sealed tombs will violently expel those who are really dead, and they will appear and laugh with their empty eye sockets, with their bare jaws, because of the rejoicing of the souls freed from Limbo, a remote rejoicing and yet perceived even by skeletons. They will appear to laugh because of this liberation and to throb knowing it is due to… Go! He will come to you. You will do what he asks you to do. You will assist him in everything, as if he were your brother. And you will also say to him: “When you are completely purified, we will go together along the road of the river, beyond Doco and Ephraim. Jesus, the Master, will be waiting for us to tell us in what we have to serve him”.»

«I will do that. And what about the other one?»

«Who? The Iscariot?»

«Yes, Master.»

«The advice I gave him still stands. Let him decide by himself and let him take a long time. Even better, avoid seeing him.»

«I will be with the leper. Only lepers wander about in the valley of the sepulchres and those who pitifully are in touch with them.» (...)

Now let Me finish talking to Thomas. Are you sure you will recognise the leper? He is the only one healed; but he may already have left by starlight, to find an early wayfarer. And someone, anxious to enter the town and see his relatives, might perhaps take his place. Listen to his description. I was near him and I saw him well in the twilight. He is tall and thin. Of a dark complexion, like a cross-breed, very deep and dark eyes with snow-white eyebrows, hair as white as linen and somewhat curly, and a long snubbed nose like the Lybians’, two thick protruding lips particularly the lower one. He is so olive-coloured that his lips verge on violet. He has an old scar on his forehead and it will be the only stain, now that he has been cleaned from scabs and dirt.»

«He must be old, if he is all white.»

«No, Philip, he looks old, but he is not. Leprosy made him white.»

«What is he? A cross-breed?»

«Perhaps, Peter. He resembles African people.»

«Will he be an Israelite, then?»

«We will find out. But suppose he is not?»

«Eh! If he were not, he would go away. He is already lucky that he deserved to be healed.»

«No, Peter. Even if he is an idolater, I will not send him away. Jesus has come for everybody. And I solemnly tell you that people living in darkness will overcome the children of the people of Light…»

Jesus sighs. He then stands up. He thanks the Father with a hymn and blesses everyone.

The vision ends in this way.

GRM 56.2-4

The Gospel as revealed to me

Quotation

56.2 Three wayfarers are standing on the road, in the middle of the bend. They look up and down, to the south, where Jerusalem is and to the north, where Samaria lies. They look anxiously between the trees to see whether anyone is arriving as expected. They are Thomas, Judas Thaddeus and the healed leper. They are speaking.

«Can you see anything?»

«No, I can’t.»

«Neither can I.»

«And yet this is the place.»

«Are you sure?»

«I’m sure, Simon. One of the six said to me, when the Master was going away amid the acclamations of the crowd, after the miraculous healing of a crippled beggar, who was healed at the Fish Gate: “We are now going out of Jerusalem. Wait for us five miles between Jericho and Doco, at the bend of the river, along the road in the woodland”. This one. He also said: “We will be there in three days’ time at dawn”. This is the third day, and we have been here before dawn.»

«Will He come? Perhaps we should have followed Him from Jerusalem.»

«You were not yet allowed to mix with the crowds, Simon.»

«If my cousin told you to come here, He will certainly come here. He always keeps His promise. All we can do is wait.»

56.3 «Have you always been with Him?»

«Yes, always. Since He came back to Nazareth He was my good companion. We were always together. We are about the same age, I am a little older. And I was the favourite of His father, who was my father’s brother. Also His Mother was very fond of me. I grew up more with Her than with my own mother.»

«She was fond… Is She no longer as fond of you, now?»

«Oh! Yes, She is. But we have parted a little since He became a prophet. My relatives are not happy about it.»

«Which relatives?»

«My father and the two older brothers. The other one is undecided… My father is very old and I did not have the courage to hurt him. But now… Now, no longer so. Now I am going where my heart and my mind tell me. I am going to Jesus. I don’t think I am offending the Law by doing so. In any case… if what I want to do was not right, Jesus would tell me. I will do what He says. Is it right for a father to prevent a son from doing good? If I feel that my salvation is there, why prevent me from reaching it? Why, at times, are our fathers our enemies?»

Simon sighs as if he were overwhelmed by sad memories, he lowers his head, but does not speak.

Thomas instead replies: «I have already overcome the obstacle. My father listened to me and he understood me. He blessed me saying: “Go. May this Passover be for you the liberation from the slavery of waiting. You are lucky because you can believe. I will wait. But if it is really Him, and you will find out following Him, then come and say to your old father: ‘Come, Israel has the Expected One’”.»

«You are luckier than I am. And we always lived beside Him!… And we, in the family, do not believe!… We say, that is: they say: “He has gone mad”!»

56.4 «There, there is a group of people» shouts Simon. «It’s Him, it’s Him! I recognise His fair head! Oh! Come! Let us run!»

They start walking fast southwards. When they reach the centre of the bend, the trees cover the remainder of the road, so that the two groups face each other unexpectedly. Jesus seems to be coming up from the river, because He is among the trees on the bank.

«Master!»

«Jesus!»

«My Lord!»

The three cries of the disciple, the cousin and the cured leper are full of joy and veneration.

«Peace to you!» There is the beautiful, unmistakable, full, resonant, calm, expressive, clear, virile, sweet, incisive voice!

GRM 56.6

The Gospel as revealed to me

Quotation

56.6 Jesus addresses Thomas: «You obeyed faithfully. That is the first virtue of a disciple.»

«I came because I want to be faithful to You.»

«And you will be. I tell you.»

GRM 56.7

The Gospel as revealed to me

Quotation

56.7 Come, My childless Simon. Come, Judas, who are losing your father for My sake. I join you in the same destiny.»

«They are both beside Him. He is holding His hands on their shoulders as if He were taking possession of them and imposing a common yoke on them. He then says: «And I unite you together. But now I will separate you. Simon, you will stay here with Thomas. You will prepare with him the way for My return: I will be back soon, and I want the people to be waiting for Me. Tell the sick people that He Who can cure their illnesses is about to come here: you can certainly tell them that. Tell those who are waiting, that the Messiah is among His people. Tell the sinners that He Who forgives has come to give them strength to rise…»

«Will we be able to do that?»

«Yes, you will. All you have to say is: “He has come. He calls you. He is waiting for you. He has come to grant you graces. Come here to see Him”, and to these words add a report of what you know. And you, Judas, My cousin, come with Me and these. But you will stay at Nazareth.»

«Why, Jesus?»

«Because you must prepare My way in My fatherland. Do you think it is a small mission? I can tell you that there is not a harder one…» Jesus sighs.

«And will I succeed?»

«You will and you will not. But it will be sufficient to be justified.»

«Justified of what? And with whom?»

«With God. With your fatherland. With your family. They will not be able to reproach us, because we offered good things: and if the fatherland and the family will disdain our offer, we shall not be blamed for their loss.»